I have been gone for some time now…

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That’s my Max! You might be wondering why I put a picture of my dog when the title implies that I will be explaining why I have been gone for so long. I’m going to do that but my Max is part of the whole. I’ll explain in a bit. First I want to say thank you to Carol for looking into my disappearance. I didn’t realize you had sent me a message until just recently and I want you to know how much it means to me! You are amazing! Thank you so much for caring!

In March, I took a turn for the worst. I spent some time in the hospital, a real hospital not my long term care home. If you remember, I was trying to get off the Fentanyl and Morphine because of the side effects and get on a Cannabis Oil. I will tell you that the Cannabis Oil is such a better pain reliever then opiates and narcotics. If for some reason any you are in need of pain medication, try Cannabis Oil before you let a doctor prescribe opiates or narcotics. Opiates are highly addictive, you will need more and more while your body gets used to the drugs and trying to get off them is HELL! Let me tell you, it is pure hell and my body, in my weakened state could NOT get off them! I am so disappointed in myself. I know that I should not be disappointed, I do have ALS. I just can’t get my mind to except the failure. Or the failure that I perceive.

It took me quite a bit of time to recover from my vacation to the hospital and I will admit that I’m still not a hundred percent. It’s my mood and attitude now, mostly. I just don’t feel like myself lately. I’m down, I guess. I’m in a funk and I have not wanted to write a post because I feel like it will come across in my writing. No reason to bring down my favourite people!

During all of this time, a family member went through some pretty stressful stuff. I’m not going to go into any detail because it is not my secret to share. What I will say is that when a person you love goes through something that bad, the people who love them go through it too. You are in the trenches with them, helping them shoulder some of the burden. It’s what you do for those you love. Of course, you never know the depth of their respective but it affects you as well. You can’t help it and you, or at least I would not have it any other way. I need to be there for the people I love. Why am I fighting so hard to stay alive for if I can’t be there for the people who matter the most?! Right? Right.

That brings me to my Maxwell, or Max for short. During all of the turmoil of family stress, I had to say goodbye to my Max. I did it alone because my family members were already dealing with enough and quite frankly, I knew they would not have shared everything if they knew. My Max didn’t die or anything. He was living with my cousin Mike and his wife Melanie. They have two beautiful small children, Lilly and Sawyer. Now my Maxwell is old and his eyes and ears aren’t so good anymore. And you know toddlers, everything is face level and touch. My poor little Sawyer was probably just trying to play with Maxwell but Max bit poor Sawyer! I know, I feel terrible! And Max probably didn’t see or hear him coming and just got scared. Needless to say, Max could not stay with them anymore. You can not have a dog who is biting like that with small children. Maybe if they were older and understood, it would have been different. Anyway, we put my Max up for adoption and last I heard he was having his teeth done and then going to a new home. I sure hope he’s happy there!

Anyhoo, that is my speel. I apologize for being away for so long. I have a lot more recipes to share with you and I will try not to be away for so long going forward. Be happy everyone and take care of those around you! xo

15 thoughts on “I have been gone for some time now…”

  2. Hey, Lisa…I am so pleased you are ok..and back…A lot to deal with and such a shame about the withdrawal symptoms…Can you wean off them very, very gradually? Or is that not an option? Again so pleased to hear you are back I was worried about you…Try to have a good weekend 🙂 xx

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    • Unfortunately, I have been on these drugs for so long that my poor little body just can’t handle the withdrawal symptoms. I wish I could because the cannabis oil is so much better. I was trying to get off the other meds very slowly as it was and I ended up in the hospital enjoying some time away from home. Not! I was scared, I will admit and I think that added to this funk I have been in. Anyway, thanks for thinking about me. It means more than you know. Happy Canada Day! Well, July 1st anyway! Hope you have a great weekend! xo

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      • Oh…Lisa I so wish I could wave a wand..life is unfair at times and all these wonderful brains who discover so much need to going on this….And you madam never cease to amaze me…you rock…Big Hugs xxx

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  3. Hi Lisa. I love to read your posts. I feel a connection with you from them. I’m sorry about your Max, and even more sorry about your medical situation. I agree with your friend ~ you are So strong ~ So caring ~ So very amazing as a human being……..but then I always knew that from the time you were a very beautiful little girl with long curly hair. You always had a piece of my heart. Love you lots, Aunt Deb XO

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    • Thanks Aunt Deb! You know, that comment above was from Alison, Aunt Paul’s daughter. Funny that she said that she wants to be more like me. I spent my whole life wanting to be more like her. Funny how life is, eh? I hope Craig and Korey are well! I saw pictures from your trip to Dominican. Just after I saw your beautiful pictures, I saw a documentary on the Dominican Republic and all of the problems they are having with pedophiles and human trafficking. Such a stark contrast to the beautiful pictures!
      Love you so much! xo

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  5. Thank you for being open and honest, Lisa. Too many fakers out there 🙂 I’m sorry for your difficult journey through pain… Other than muscle cramps and occasional neck and shoulder pain, I am thankful that I don’t have a lot of pain. Poor Max, and Sawyer, of course 🙂 ~young kids and old dogs don’t usually get along.
    I am praying for you, my friend.

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  6. I am having a spring clean of my posts and came across this one…I do hope you are ok, Lisa and have or are coming out of your funk as you put it…I think about you sometimes and wonder how you are doing…I understand if you cannot or don’t feel you can blog at the moment just know I do think of you …Hugs xx

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    • Carol! Happy New Year! Ha! I’m a little late I know but know that you are always thought about. As for my funk, ahhhhhhh… I don’t know what to tell you. I’m, I don’t know even how to describe what is going on with me. I just don’t have the energy or even the words for my blog. There are nights where I think about something I would like to write about but I get up the next morning, on my computer and the urge is gone. What can I say? I hope that one day I will write again.
      Thank you for thinking of me! You are a beautiful person! Stay well my friend!
      Lisa xo

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      • Hey, Lisa… Yes you are both a little late and a little early we have two new years here… 31st Dec and 13th April.. Songkram which is Thai New Year if you count Chinese New Year 24th Jan we celebrate 3 New Years.. Thais love to party 🎉… You will have to write when you think about something I do and sometimes at an unearthly hour.. Lol… Take care, Lisa… I look forward to your next post whenever you write it.. Maybe some recipes… Xxx

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  7. Your link came up on my stats.. were you having a peek at my blog? I hope all is good on your end we are all coming to terms with the numerous WP changes in the blogging world…Chat soon xx

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